Moody Day
August 30th, 2007 by creationxThis will be my 1st blog I gannna write.. Today 31st August 2007. I felt very moody for all the sudden. Didn’t got to sleep the whole night. I just don’t know why?. Its been quite some time . I just don’t know what am I worried. It feels like I ganna break apart soon. Is it my work, skills , friends , family or something? I try to achieve something to my perfection, but yet I cant achieve my goal. I got a wonderful family with me, my dad , my mom , my lil sis and my lil brother. Who is always support me . I had wonderful college, friends and future. Who cares a lot to me, even im in the bad shape. But there is something is hiding behind my shadow. Well its doesn’t matter to me now. Hopefully that thing, that hidden behind my shadow will show out soon. And I hope someone will make my smile back. And my confident…
Today will be alone the whole night at my Subang Condo. And jump into the swimming pool swim the whole night and think. Working and recharge. Don’t think of anything just focusing on what I had now. And have a bottle of wine while working.
After i had a good talk to my sifu Min. I really think I m stupid . Real stupid. Haha. I just don’t know why am I tooo rush ? Grabing every thing and suicide myself.. All i need is PATIENT. Things will be alot better if I m abit more patient. Not only to my work, but every thing thats around me. And Very FOCUS. I really easily distracted, nervous and blank out my mind. Haiz thinking back also I laugh. May be I had a good heart.So i Grab and DIE. And hurt people. I hope this won’t happen. This is what i scare most in my life. Hurting people.
